The Below piece is what I really want to get into. The Charachters name is D.I.S. or just Dis. (Acronymn short paraphrrased fuck for the thing). DRUG INDUCED SCHITZOPHRENIA. The easy way to describe it is.... well, you know that one friend that took too many drugs and isolated himself so the next time yoou saw him you were like, "who the fuck are you." That was me, it still kind of is sometimes. Apparently i still have this "Mental Disorder" ( which i think is a derrogittorry term but anyways. I think it should be referred to as mentally gifted, mentally advanced. something else. Study the brain and youll kinda get it. Back to what i was saying tho. This developed schitzophrenia caused by the break down of the filter that processes psychoactive chemicals. Apparently it has triggers and Ive had it for a long fucking time, like a long long fucking time. Writing about it and talking to the few people i allow close to me kind of helps me understand it better and cope i guess. I flipped the fuck out this weekend (almost laughs and crys at the same time) cus i get this demented thing when tears start to come out of my eyes i start laughing like a mad man on meth or some shit. The people that have seen me do it understand how strange, anyways, whatever the fuck. its wierd right, theres this thing about maybe schitzophrenia being genetically a combination of 8 dna strands rather than one inherent gene. I dont even wanna type about this shit anymore. FUUUUCCCCKKKK. But its okay it helps. So this charachter, I developed him as a way to portray my experiences in a creative way without having to relive and reactivate those wires in my brain. Its like scary virgin mary right. i plan to develop a series and whooopty whooop.
But yeah, the philosiphy for me is just like come with it fresh off the top of the dome, or dont cum at all. Same concept as within hip hop right, its cool to nreference a classic song, but dont jock a style invented by someone else and try to say you come with it, cus you dont, youre just replicating what your idols did. You can only go so far in the game that way, youll get to the point where someone will see it and be like, weak. I heard it, i seent it, said matheson on pineapple express. its like. yeah bruh, anyways. DIS is the shit. I apoligize in advanced if i come off arrogant as fuck or ego inflated, and maybe i am some times. so the fuck what. I know what i bring to the table n a lotta foooze bring crums next to what i bring. Stop tryna do whats been done, blaze your own trail. Anyways thats enough about those useless types.
I bring the noise and yo weak ass bring static. Cant even stay on beat and the most bars you've ever had was when you was behind em.
Big fish in a small pond concept but wat... just watch like the one you no longer wear, just check your phone and watch. Ima be makin it in the Ocean. Watch.
This is me pissing on a tree at a park, as i often do when I'm full of liquids and need to metabolize and breakdown the sugars.
The draft for DIS'S background
Me pissing at another place at a different point in time. I dont know what that thing by my foot is officer, i swear to God it was already there, n the he asks, "What God", and i say pick one, theyre all the same, that just happened in my head. LOL, cus its not good to dwell on negativity but i think its important to think worse case scenarios just in case, know your escapee routes fence jumping night crawling writers.
The best tacos in the World, thats all i have to say. (Drops microphone and walks away)
But yeah, i did that drawing in jail; or whatever, If you have art skills, youll be grubbin soups n drinking cadillacs n shit. But the food tho, Im almost sure it has sedatives or something in it. But the homies loved that i was drawin pussys n stuff. Homeboy was all like, " youre fucking dirty bro, they wont even lt me play softball, youre fucking dirty bro, I bet theyll let you play softball." lol. (Referring to the local adult team league.) Anyways, Lesvian Lovers in pencil outta my head no photo reference, you have nothing but time in there bro. Play cards and master your art skills. But she lickin the butthoe tho. She must love her lover. (Partner or whatever the kids are calling it these days).
This ones dope too. Like in art school it kind of de sensitizes you to nudity I think, like this girl ? lady whatever, she was not bad looking at all, she was all lying down nwe were in a semi circle around the room just like drawing and painting her. Not on her but u know, painting her. ANYWAYS SHE LOOKED KINDA LIKE THIS PAINTING BUT A LITTLE MORE SKIN TONEISH. btw, WHATS UP WITH ALL MY PHOTOGRAPHY HOMIES THO, (damnit hit caps lock n didnt realize it) no time for editing tho. Yeah, i need some high resolution megapixelated versions of this painting, cus its far larger than it appears on your screen. And here its a square, instagram n tumblr square format havin ass. lol. Im always loling inmy head for reasons unknown. But yeah, the girl was pretty, i was on stuff for part of the process, the painting came out dope. Live models are the best. (Keep it professional tho you know) maybe sometinmes winky face it depends.
These tits pith the towl wrapped in watercolor paper.
She Likes to Ride the dick.... Thats the name of the painting, get it... shes riding the dick. That one wet on wet control the water on your paper type. ___ Collab with DLC, youre a fuckin badass if youre reading this, and even if no one knows hopes or cares, youre still a fucking badass in my invisible book. U know whats up. You is dope on so many artistic levels.
Another one from jail above in pencil off the noggin with that pull it to side memory cus aint nobody got time to be gettin all naked, just get in get out and on your way, that my be her slogan. You dont know that.
This guy... Fuckin Malacracio just hanging out party time in downtoen.
The Lying Third Eye or Third Eye Lion, depending on if you speak Spanish or speak backwards, english on the tip of the tounge like (lalalalalalalal) n spanish being the equivalent to cursive, english the red headed step child that looks like a frantic jouornal of a tragic rockstar. Fuckin languages and the study of their developments, anyways, its all here say for the now okay, i might say the opposite yesterday.
Zebras, sketches for a greater image, but i only seen zebras at the chaffee zoo, no one on my street is allowed to have one. Butb you can have an annoying ass loud ass barking ass dog. I love dogs, Im just sayin yall shoulda left the buffallo alone. You know?
The young hungry lion, its a concept used as a phrase and he has a face in his mane bitch!!!
Fucking class, this nocturnal shift working on this painting was hell, im telling you, when i spend too much time alone and i work, the schitzophrenia creeps in. I know its only a small to moderate amount based on the group therapy sessions years ago post rehab, hanging out n telling stories with crazy george (careful with the guns and lawn moing next time) and being born with schitzophrenia poor guy. poor family. Poor world. Poor you if you believe some guy in the sky created someone since birth to be that way, why, for what. Its scientifically mystical muh du. Anyways not george but other homeboy had it bad, n i hope thats not how i look and act when im outta my head and into the... well, i guess thats kinda how i get sometimes, but not since birth. i worked hard to develop this mental hyper capability they wanna put a cap on with pills but whatever.
Details of DIS on canvas, his shirt as it developed
Prints from MezzoTint, mezzo tint is dope. I talk about that another time.Damn, the sun is rising already and i was having so much fun unwinding, almost time to sleep. Its normal i guess, the sun is always rising somewhere, Pero la vida es larga y manana sale el sol - o.k.
Same print different shit.
I think the image speaks for itself, even if you cant read words or a language, visual art is universal and transcends language. Illlet DIS talk About DIS. Hes grown enough to explain himself.
These lil dudes, theyre just lil dudes, they didnt exist in my head before i put them on the paper, they develop out of a natural sense of design. a creative building rocess you can say.
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